B.B. King had this song out called, ‘Nobody loves me but my mother’ and then the next verse says, ‘and she might be jiving too.’ Have you ever felt like that? That there was nobody on the face of the earth that had any love for you? It’s like you’re on a small deserted island surrounded by an ocean infested with haters, circling around like sharks, waiting for you to step out into that water so that they can take a bite out of your soul.
Gnashing at your heart, scratching away at your will, trying to break down your spirit and drag you down into the depths of loneliness and despair. Those haters want you to be afraid. They want you to be paranoid of any and everybody. They want you to start tipping by windows and peeping around corners, sleeping with a loaded gun in your hand, because you become paranoid about that wolf that’s assuredly coming to knock down your door.
“I keep staring over my shoulders,
And peeping around corners,
My mind is playing tricks on me..” – Geto Boyz
So what do you do when this mania sets in? Are you going to hide out underneath your bed and refuse to face the world? Are you going to roll around strapped everywhere you go? Even taking your gun with you to the bathroom? How many locks and deadbolts do you have to put on your door before you feel safe? Do you REALLY think those guns and home security systems are going to save you? Cuz you can already feel it..NOBODY loves you. You could stop breathing right this second and the only people that will look for you are the people who you owe money to and maybe your momma.
I’m not trying to blow your high, I’m just giving you a framework of the depths of the pit that people fall into everyday. We are surrounded by an ever increasing number of people who are quietly living on the brink of desperation.
People that’s ready to go postal. People that’s ready to give up and quit. Just imagine, for all of the horrors and dead end trails that we KNOW crack cocaine leads to, there are still thousands of people in America that will smoke crack for the very first time today. Because they’ve given up and they want to feel some relief. They want to have some semblance of joy and happiness in their lives, if but for a fleeting moment.
Cuz all the while you’re afraid of what lurks behind the shadow, there is a demon roving to and fro seeking to push you off that ledge.
Go ahead and pull that trigger
Fire up that pipe
Curse God and die.
But before you pull that trigger, before you go ‘agg’ on a n’ga. Let me share something with you.
“For God hath not given us the spirit of fear; but of power, and of love, and of a sound mind.” – II Timothy 1:7 KJV
What does this mean? It means that we are never alone. We are never without someone who loves us. Just as Satan tempted Job and Jesus, that same devil will show up to tempt you. Trying to make you believe that God doesn’t care about you. Trying to make you believe that Jesus wasn’t even thinking about you when He went to that cross.
Listen to that song on Ride Wit Me, “Don’t give up..just hold on..joy WILL come..you’ll be strong!!” He is an AWESOME God, but the first thing you have to do is believe that God is, and that He is a rewarder of those who diligently seek after Him (Hebrews 11:6).
